introduction
biography
Photobucket
Yo assholes and people, I'm Han Feng ;D People and assholes call me Reid, Ah Fat, Ghim Moh, Holyknight, Lao Han etc etc too! Hmm just another guy that is crazy over assignments =)) NOT!!! Hahaha xD Hmm more into music and having fun in life, what could beat that? ;D
bolditalicunderlinestrikeout


Music
Hear what i hear!!! ;D


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com


chatterbox
Got words jiu say!!! ;D



Escape
and never looking back again.... NOT!!! Right? ;D
Alvin
Alpha
Alexia
Bruce
Corrine
Chicky
Cheryl Tan
Cheryl Tiah
Candyce, the lame queen
Chean Fei
Del
Daniel
Eldwin
Jingting
Jun Yi
Jun Yi(DMIT)
Jesleve
Leo
Nick
Petrine
See Jiet
Wan Yu
WunYing


time machine
walk down memory lane
January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009

flashbacks
reminiscence
That nightmare just came true again... When you thought you had all the answers... No more shitty feeling Staying up late in the night... Broken SHOPPING SPREE PIAK!!! HERE TO UPDATE AGAIN LOL NO MARNEH NO HARNEH WEIRD DREAMS....

take a bow
how about a round of applause
Layout: x o x o
Inspiration: I ; II
Color codes: I
Icon: I
That nightmare just came true again...
Tuesday, December 15, 2009 @ 2:30 AM

DAMN WHY...

Why does this have to happen again? Alright to you people that dunno what happened about like... 3-4 years ago, i'll just open that closet of secrets again...

3 - 4 years ago, i got into a rs with some girl... We very happy together... for 6 - 7 months together... But then... suddenly her parents forbid her to go out anymore, which i tink the reason was because we hang out too often and we often go home quite late... And then her parents warned her not to message me again, and never to go out with me... For almost a week she was like staying at home... cannot go out... She still will secretly message me, and hearing her misery about being stucked at home... made me very du lan, becos i cannot do anything about it also... So my weird mind suddenly thought of something... I thought of a stupid plan: Since we 2 hang out = the cause of her misery, why not i break up with her to like free her? So yeah i knew she wouldnt agree to my stupid plan, so i just tell her we break up with no reason... When she asked for the reason... i just told her a lie, say that we too long nvr meet up, my feelings fade already...

I thought i was effing noble or watever fuck u call it, but in the end... she was free, but yeah she got over me and got into a rs with another guy... and they soon make her parents to accept them... It made me regret alot... Stuffs like: What if i continued to try make her parents accept us? etc etc...

3-4 years later... about the same things happen again... Have been hanging out with a girl that keeps me company after the 3rd party thingy... I've started to like her... and we went out today... Her family has alot of problems, like between her parents... then today her mum flare up, becos she stayed too late... her curfew de time already passed... Can see that she very depressed when i sent her home... Nvm... when i reach home... she suddenly send one msg... say that she cannot contact me and be with me for a while, cos her mum flare up already..., her temper become very bad due to family probs... Then she said i might probably wasted all the time on her, and asked me to forget her cos she doubt she has got freedom already... And i sent her a msg back... but yeah till now theres no reply...

Why must it happen again? Okay la, actually not the exact same thing happened... but yeah i somehow find it similar... Must i keep trying or give up? I want to try so much, becos im afraid if i dont, the same thing from the past happen again, and i'll regret yet again... Alright mood is down down down... off to playing guitar... sad songs... they sound nicer when your mood matches theirs...
When you thought you had all the answers...
Sunday, December 13, 2009 @ 3:22 PM

FOW over!!!

Yeah i think i sucked at being an OC though, hmm but watever its over so i should stop feeling bad about it.

One dollar left for today!!! Overspending again... but 2mr im gonna get pocket money!! Yay then i will spend alot to get those spoiled stuffs replaced =.= Like guitar strings and new earpiece etc... DAMN!!! Maybe i should really find some temp work, like how my brother did... But he nvr intro ASSHOLE!!! xD

Okay la my main point of blogging today actually is the random part, so i should stop yapping here and go to RANDOM!!! ;D

*random*
-edited- previous random deleted... i felt theres no point yapping over those stuffs, so yeah new random!

*new random*
I'll just keep reminding myself that you already choosed ur bf over me, and the conversation we had today is just fren fren talk, nothing else! ;D
No more shitty feeling
Friday, December 11, 2009 @ 2:05 AM

THE SHIT FEELING IS OFFICIALLY GONE!!!

WOOHOOO and for today its never coming back even though im gonna stay up late becos something very very sweet happened to me LOL, sweeter than the sweetest shit u can find =O

Okay la enough of sweets and shits, 2mr FOW liao lo!!! That means i cannot at home slack for 2 days!!! Aiya nvm la, hopefully it can work properly hahaha, then at least it will be better than slacking at home ;D

My holidays very fun i can predict!!! But my mum is going to nag nag and nag again at me, for not getting a job during the holidays... Sorry la, i in need of money, but i in need of fun too HAHAHA xD Hopefully can find those jobs that can choose when to do and when not to do one ;D Then i woohoo liao, can fun plus money LOL!!! Perfect combo! ;D Okay la i go sleep liao ;D Tired like bird le ;D

*random*
Thank you for telling me that ;D
Staying up late in the night...
Thursday, December 10, 2009 @ 3:09 AM

I HATE THIS FEELING...

Its always late in the night that i get this kinda feeling... Sad songs makes it worse, but yeah the songs damn nice la hahaha... Yeah its 3.10am now... and i cant sleep... So went to blog hop hop hop again... Hopped almost all the blogs already... so went to search if theres somemore... Thats when the feeling comes when i go to view the blogs of all the ppl i said i've gotten over...

See alot... And again they affect me... Now im getting that shit feeling AGAIN =.=... Like im beginning to think about stuffs again =.=... Maybe i should stop staying up late, and if i ever stay up late, find something else to do, other than blog hopping xD No wonder parents urge us to sleep early, damn it!!! Hahaha =.=

*random*
Happy for you all? That you all had found that someone that you really really love... lovey dovey... But somehow theres this inner evil alter ego which hopes for something else... It says: If only I'm that person that makes you feel that way for him.../do you think of me like im thinking of you now?/etc etc etc... Hmm... nvm 2mr this fucked up feeling will be gone ;D
Broken
Wednesday, December 9, 2009 @ 7:52 PM

ALOT OF MY STUFFS WENT OUT OF ORDER MAN!!!

Yeah seriously alot... i can like make a list of them, those that i can think of of course ;D

Items that is broken or spoiled:
-Guitar string!!!
-My tapered jeans button!!!
-Earpiece!!!
-Handphone!!!
-Ring ( LOST WTF!!! )
-TimeZone Game card

ALOT RIGHT!!! SHIT MAN... And most of them i cant live without la... Handphone really... I using spare phone, and i found out that most of my contacts saved in the phone, not SIM card... NOT EMO?!?! So ppl if u see me replying with "EH WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!?!" dont be surprised, cos i really dunno WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU due to the contacts lost ;D

Ytd went out see new moon, see until i one moon also cannot catch =.= Cos maybe never read the effing book, so some stuffs dont understand LOL =.=... Heng got student price, or else i spend money to catch no moons ;D Hmm then my ring lost!!! And its kinda dumb on how i lost it... We go arcade play play play... the basketball machine... throw throw throw... then hor my score damn high... then i ownself also throw until damn high. Higher than drugs LOL =.= Then i never care about my ring even though it seemed to be quite loose... Then i throw the ball.... THE RING FLEW OUT WITH IT.... MY HIGHNESS FROM SI BEI SI BEI HIGH DROP UNTIL 100000 METRES UNDERGROUND... NOT SIAN? Then hor i throw balls slower, cos i throw liao then i look for my ring, then i throw again... In the end dunno my ring fly until where la... sian like ccb =.=...

Hmm play until halfway the arcade card spoil... EMO!!! INSIDE STILL GOT VALUE LEH WTF CCB!!! =.=... Hais okay move on the my earpiece... how it broke... AT HOME I USE COM, i take out from back after school... THEN WTF!!! My earpiece that hook gone... and the other one also broke... left abit nia the hook... then keep drop cos it cannot hook onto my ear... then sooner or later... then hook also broke becos it dropped on the floor always... THEN SIAN LOR!!! Now i have to use my earpice like a retard, holding it with hands to listen to them... SERIOUS RETARDED ;D

HANDPHONE SPOILED!!! HOW?!?! Eat stuff eat until halfway... send finish message somemore... then after a while check for message... then WTF?!?! MY HANDPHONE DE SHUT DOWN BUTTON MACHIAM AUTO MOVE? Cos my handphone auto shutdown... Okay la i used to it already so i thought its nothing one... so i took out battery and put back and then on... WA THEN FUCK? IT KEEP HANGS AT A BLACK SCREEN... sian... shake my phone like shaker fries also no use can?!?! LOL =.=... fucked up phone la...

Si bei emo de la... LAO ZI ZAO LIAO LA, I MUST GO HIDE ONE CORNER CRY AND BURY MY BROKEN STUFFS AND I VERY SHY, CANNOT LET U ALL SEE I CRY, so yeah bai bai assholes ;D

*random*
If only you were prettier... and have a better figure... LOL =O

*random2*
I'm still that shallow... =/
SHOPPING SPREE
Monday, December 7, 2009 @ 11:17 PM

SHOP SHOP SHOP SHOP SHOP ARRRRRRR

Haha yeah today went out with mum to shop shop xD Oh yeah i made a mistake sia LOL!!! My assignment is due on january like so effing far!!! xD But the prac test today... cui la... hais... i tink i fucking fail liao la...

So yeah after the prac test, went home then mum say she today off day, so yeah go shop liao la, brother also got go HAHAHA xD In the end walk walk walk... tired... but she help me pay for 270++ bucks worth of clothing!!! WOW like so happy hahaha xD I tink we long time nvr go out like that liao hahaha... Then we keep talk about very funny thing haha!!! Like chio bus and watsoever la hahaha!!! xD My bro got new handphone, so did my mum. Their plan end liao wa then sian lei... i still stuck using that shit phone... NOT SIAN =.=...

Hmm now reach home le ba hahaha xD Cant wait for 2mr man ;D Yeah i'm watching New Moon with my effing great listening ear ;D Hahaha xD Hais but that also means spending money money money... SIAN!!! MY GUITAR STRING NOT EVEN FIX YET LA, ALREADY NEED SPEND MONEY LIAO... =.=...

Okay me going to sleep soon, very tired... and i dont want to oversleep 2mr HAHAHA xD Okay thats it folks BYE BYE ;D

*random*
WOOOO FIRST DAY OF HOLIDAY SO SHIOK LIAO ;D
PIAK!!!
Friday, December 4, 2009 @ 11:56 PM

MY GUITAR STRING BROKE AGAIN!!!

Yeah like effing randomly break... i wasnt even playing it... i use com use halfway... suddenly... PIAK! Omg la then i know gg liao =.=... So i have to fucking waste money replace it again.... Hais... emoo

Next week got practical test and one assignment... FUCKING STRESS LA CCB =.=... I lazy go touch also hahaha =X Hais...

Hmm wat to update lei? LOL =.=... sorry ar boring life nothing to update one hahaha xD Okay i go sleep after i dl finish my dear yu gi oh game LOL ;D

*random*
=)
HERE TO UPDATE AGAIN LOL
Wednesday, December 2, 2009 @ 6:45 PM

YEAH I KNOW U GUYS MISS ME LA, SO IM BACK!!!

LOL no la lao zi where got so bhb one... obviously i want to update right!!! HAHAHAHA xD Hmm okay today fucking sad... Bought a whole stack of blank cds today, for assignment's use etc etc... but guess what.. I LOST THEM -.-... WHATS WORSE? LAO ZI AT HOME DO ASSIGNMENT HALFWAY THEN REALISED =.=... I took hours to realise that i left my stack of cds somewhere that i've gone to... which i tink is the JE kopitiam CCB AR!!! Sian de lei... hais... I know i'm whining long enough, but i still going to say this. Whoever that saw me leaving without my big stack of cds, and nvr tell me, u all suck!!! xD Okay la END THE WHINING ;D

*random*
Hais... wrong move made again.

*random AGAIN*
She's having problems with her bf again, i'm so gonna ignore her facebook's status after i see them and laugh *insert evil laughter*
NO MARNEH NO HARNEH
@ 9:33 AM

YEAH NO MARNEH NO HARNEH~~~~~

Or rather no outtings etc etc... becos lao zi overspent again =.=... Hais... ytd want eat with zk they all, also cant, becos no money... Ytd actually wanna meet up with bernie to go to downtown east, also cant, becos no money... Ytd actually wanna eat dinner, also cant, becos no money... Ytd wanna buy CSGD textbook, also cant, becos no money... NO MARNEH AR!!!! =.=

Hmm i've been thinking... ONLY MONEY CAN BUY ENTERTAINMENT?!?! Hmm not really... I could have gone to eat dinner with zk they all, but i dont order food and just talk and spend time with them during that time also can wat? I could have gone to downtown east and met up with bernie, and then just talk about my problems that she is dying to know... Okay la for the last 2 part no money sure cannot one la LOL, BUY TEXTBOOK NO NEED MARNEH I CHOP MY BIRD BIRD FOR YOU AR... ;D

Hmm i reject reject reject when theres activity involving money whenever im broke... Should i stop rejecting? And just go and try to spend as little as possible? I'll become an anti social bird if im broke for life right? LOL =.=... Okay going to school later, hopefully can find help for my CSGD assignment la... knn haven finish yet lei... late 2 days liao... lecturer give extention le somemore... sure got heavy late penalties one lo... fucked...

*random*
Please dont ignore me, if i had known this would happen, i would have gone there... I need those imba listening ears man!!! =.=
WEIRD DREAMS....
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 @ 1:52 AM

SI BEI WEIRD ONES...

These few days keep having weird ones... Not gonna describe them as its too weird for you all to know LOL!!! xD Lack of sleep the cause? Hahaha dunno lei, though sleep little, the dreams makes my sleep seems much longer hahaha cos very happening lei LOL xD

HOLIDAYS COME SOON PLS... I CANNOT TAHAN SCHOOL LIAO LOL =.=... STILL GOT 2 MORE ASSIGNMENTS FOR ME... COS I HAVEN COMPLETE CSGD... NEH NEH POK =.= NERD MODE MUST CONT UNTIL HOLIDAYS AR... OMG...

Okay la i go sleep liao, si bei tired... hopefully not another weird dream today, let me sleep until i so shuang PLS hahaha xD 2mr 8am GEMS FUCK!!! =.=

*random*
Last night's dream wasnt weird, but its too good to be true. Heh thats why it didnt turn out that way real life, no matter how beautiful, dreams are still dreams, unless you can make them reality. Since I've failed to make them reality, i dont think its good for me to dream about stuffs related to you...